So here we are in May already and Twitter this morning has a thread about 'what would you tell your 1997 self' in honour of the twentieth anniversary of the Labour win in 1997.
I have been pondering this as I dealt with kids, dog, general household stuff. The treadmill of modern family life does get me down and May 1997 would be a nice time to tell me not to bother. I wasn't engaged until later that year. But I really could not think of any major thing I would tell myself to do differently. Life has had many ups and downs in the last twenty years but I firmly believe they all make you what you are in the present. I am quite sure many people do not like me in the present but at the moment, I think I quite like myself and my place in the world. Which is really all that matters.
On the smaller life decisions, there are plenty of things I wondered if I would change. Avoid certain alcoholic beverages; avoid various people; refuse certain jobs or take others; not wear certain outfits; check my daughter's hamster cage door every night (!); not get on that horse a fortnight ago (my ribs are still agony.)
Surely, though, these things all add up to what you are right now? My parenting mantra has generally been 'it is a phase, it will pass'. This can be applied as equally to endless re-runs of Thomas the Tank Engine causing you to lose to your mind as to stroppy teenagers who think they know everything about the world because they watch YouTube and you don't.
After my blog last week, a friend commented that the blurb on this blog is now a bit misleading as I seem to have got more political. The family history element has been edging out. And I do agree, looking at my 2017 posts. I no longer tag it on Twitter for #familyhistory because I wasn't sure how relevant it is. I have been wondering how to 'rebrand'. But have got no further forward than wondering. Family history is still a major part of my life and my writing.
So maybe this is a writing phase. It is a time when I feel more political. My family history is half-based around emigration and immigration. I have a grandfather who was a conscientious objector in the Second World War. My children have a half-Irish heritage. I would be letting this history down and letting our descendants down if I do not campaign again against nuclear weapons, say what I think about Brexit, encourage people to use their votes.
I can rebrand the blog - and probably will change the blurb if I can get my head around what it should be trying to say - but according to the system (and I am not the best at doing the stats on Blogger!) more of you are reading my stuff than before so I am hoping my tone is reaching someone. I would really welcome your comments though. It might help me come to some conclusion!